I think being a "control freak" is something that many people struggle with. They have a pretty clear picture of the way they want things to go. There are few words that control freaks around the world, like me, struggle with more than "surrender." Taking my hands off a circumstance and trusting someone other than myself seems totally counter-intuitive at times. But there are few things more powerful than the act of surrender. In fact, in life, it may be the most powerful thing I can do. Surrender can and is the turning point in my life and recovery. There is this life-changing, heart-shaping power when I say, "You are God. I am not. I will trust you."
I will trust YOU to take care of other peoples issues.
I will trust YOU with my weight and food issues.
I will trust YOU with my fear of g
I will trust YOU with my therapy team.
I will trust YOU with my future.
I need to stop and ask myself, is there an area in my life that I need to surrender to today? I know there is nothing more difficult or more rewarding. The difficult part is not the surrender, but the act of stopping, taking a time-out, sitting still, taking a deep breath, and letting go. Then the reward comes, and I wonder why I don't practice this more.